Living Inspired.

"What If It's God Speaking."

For the past several days, the Holy Spirit has really been on my heart about different matters. Some of these matters included fixing my spiritual and mental states. The others have been a search as to why I am truly in Ukraine. 'How can my past experiences effect my present experiences? What makes my heart swell with joy? When am I going to see doors opening?....'

In the 12 years I have been in a relationship with Jesus, I know this full well: He never answers me in ways I think He would. Let me explain...

In September, I wrote a blog about Abba opening a HUGE door with the CP Center. I was 99.999% sure that this was my reason for coming to Ukraine. I mean, I could see myself doing most of the things that were offered. Sure, I could see myself singing there...but was that all? I knew that I wasn't giving my all when I was going to the center. That's not fail to anyone involved.

This morning, I had the choice to either go to the CP Center alone or stay home and clean/chill. I decided that I wanted to stay home. Well, Sasha and I had to go drop the older kiddos off at school. While we were there, he wanted to introduce me to some of his teachers. I pouted and said, "Do we have to?" He insisted that we go into an English class and sit for awhile. 

I sat in two English classes, answering questions that students had, listening to their presentations, chatting with the teacher (whom I had met previously at the CP Center...what?what?). I could hear from the Holy Spirit that this was it. 'Hey Raegan, remember that time when you were 10 and you sat in on English class in Tibet? The students were hanging on your every word. They delighted in the mere fact that they were having a conversation with an American. Remember them giving you and Dad (Jim) Tibetan names (Dawa: moon & Dondrup: luck)? That was their gift, their act of love to you." Jesus, you know what gets me. 

The overwhelming kindness from the students was touching. They wanted to have my autograph, a picture of me, my birthday, etc. I was given a box of chocolates...yes please. I think one of the most precious things one of the students said to me was, "We wish our best regards to your friends and family and they are lucky to have a daughter,sister,and friend like you."