--I have the advantage to live in a village just a little bit outside of the city. It's far from where I've lived for the past 18-19 years. Every morning, I look out the window to see a vineyard, little green and white houses, cow pastures, a railroad track, small Orthodox churches, and a river that separates Ukraine and Moldova. Absolutely breathtaking.
After I spent a hour or so having "real talk" time with Archie and Ruslan, I decided that the best thing I could do for myself was to take a walk alone. Well, not alone...just me and Papa. I needed to get away just for a little bit, to sit and chat with the only One who knows the very depths of my heart.
If you know me well, you know I'm not an "outdoorsy" girl. I have never been camping (I know, take a moment to say-"But you've lived near the Smokey Mountains most of your life"), have only been "hiking" 3-4 times in my life, and I hate to sweat. However, this didn't stop me. I stapped on my Chacos and went on my way. Thankfully, there is a path behind the house that seems to go on for miles. I had no plan on where or how to go, I just began walking and talking.
After walking for awhile, I just took a seat on the path....beside two cows grazing less than 20 feet away from me. I felt alive and accomplished, like I had moved a mountain. It was wonderful to be in the midst of solitude and quiet even if it was just an hour.
--Lessons Learned or Reaffirmed:
*I am his Beloved
*He is never going to leave me or forsake me in my weakness
*He's molding me into the woman He desires for me to become
*Abba is weaning me of materialism, image, useless desires, etc. only to draw me closer to Himself
*He restores my soul
*He's breaking down walls that I've built around myself for 19 years
*He is teaching me to live and walk in compassion, humility, and justice
*"The Lord has promised good to me, His Word my hope secures."
*When this journey ends in May, I can walk away with a smile knowing that if nothing else, I have hopefully found myself and more of Jesus.
Raegan, What a breath of fresh air--wish I could be there, too. This is what I always experienced in Ukraine--peace, love, unworldliness, etc. It is a special place to connect with the Father. G'Mother
ReplyDeleteWow, Beans - countryside, cows, railroad tracks, etc. You ARE a GEYER! Grandpa would be proud! HEE!
ReplyDeletePapa is certainly proud of you for allowing yourself to be open to His voice and love!
Your earthly Pops is pretty proud of you as well... :-)