Living Inspired.

Yesterday...was a very difficult day, to say the least.

   For a few weeks now I've been bottling up all my emotions to make people believe I was as cool as a cucumber about the overwhelming mounds of stress I had resting upon my shoulders. Let's have some real talk. For the past several months: I haven't slept well, I've cried multiples times before bed, I've been angry, I've been disappointed, the list goes on. No-this isn't a plead for pity...it's just being honest.

  Well, yesterday was my breaking point. I came to the place of what seemed to be a cosmic mental/physical/spiritual explosion. It seemed to be that I cried just about everything. Whether I was happy or upset or tired or whatever.

*crying over my last day in Knoxville (for awhile)

*crying over having Chick-fil-A ice cream for the last time

*crying over saying 'see you later' to my precious precious brother and best friend

*crying due to general stress

*crying over pictures of my friends and family

*having a huge breakdown over saying 'see you later' to: Shannon, Matt, Cristen, Spencer, Rachel...oof.

*crying over leaving my childhood home (for awhile)

*crying over the emptiness of my room

....I'm sure by now, you're thinking 'Raegan, shut up. You're being obnox." For reals though, I believe I had to push through that wall of overwhelming grief (even for stupid reasons) to prepare me for what's to come. Yes, I'm fully aware I'll have more days like this. I'm not going to play dumb and convince myself that it's going to be all rainbows and sunshine. Talk about unrealistic.

  I must remember that change is what allows us to grow...therefore, change is good. I never said change doesn't hurt, doesn't cause anger, doesn't cause worry, etc. However, change must happen. It's a part of life.